A twisted sense of life, love, sex, and friendship. When the heart is broken we lose the way to love in a healthy manner. My understanding of what it feels like to be a vessel to the broken has made my heart more compassionate but it still hurts. Knowing you has challenged me to grow more open in mind and heart, to look outside myself.
When you hurt or have been hurt by someone, the mind, heart continuum engages in a sort of battle, where the mind seeks solace in wanting to hurt back. Then the heart takes over trying to find reason not to. Call it conditioning from an early age when we didn’t have control over our emotions and reactions. The instinct is to strike back. Learning to be aware of this condition, to just stop engagement, giving yourself time to heal. It takes practice each and everyday. Some days we win, some we lose, it’s the cost of being human and not perfect.
I look forward to continuing this journey, to just revel in its pureness.